Life Lessons: #Feeling lost & 100th post

It has been quite a while since I posted a 'Life Lesson' short reflection. Life's great so far but since I don't really have anything to do other than buying new school books, school supplies, hang out with friends, be reunited with my laptop and phone, etc. Anyways, let's just cut the crap. I'll be writing about a feeling, a situation, or you guys can also classify this as a mental breakdown that I'm pretty sure everyone went through it before.

You probably experienced this before. For example, you suddenly started to feel so empty. Emotionless and all you could think of was to change yourself (not 180 degrees, I meant just a few bad habits of yours) but you do not know where to start.It's like 101 suggestions crosses your mind but you're just there, frozen (Let is go! Let it go!) because you realised that, whatever decision you make, it shall bring benefits instead of regrets and major consequences. Another situation like ever since you're not in the same school/country/class, you started to feel the distance and even the wall in between your past friends and you which is utterly painful because you feel like your other half's gone or probably something more related to life (Idk, what am I saying honestly).

I guess for my case when I am feeling lost, I try to think about it for a while and then I'll start doing my stuff. I mean, let's be serious here, it'll be very annoying for you to keep on remembering it. I could still remember last time I'll be typing out a grandmother story to my friends and sometimes it hits me or just ditch me aside, so my conversation with the "counselor (friend): was also an on and off thing. Now, I guess I start to not really care about certain stuff. Like, if it's a small matter, I'll think about it for a few minutes and then resume my current actions instead of wailing, crying or get really mad. If the situation can be considered as major, I'll probably talk about it or get some advices. Feeling lost is a natural process, it doesn't need to be a bully case and then you'll feel lost. It's just that you're dumbfounded in finding tons of questions that you'e unable to answer.

Note: I'm so sorry because my sentence structure was really long that you can't understand it plus I'm really sleepy right now but I shall continue.

So, what I do is. I give some time for myself and I reflect about it, I think about what kind of person do I want to be. Yes, I'll come up with something perfect but I'll start to pick some habits out and put my current habits in instead because okay, I can't do everything perfectly. There was a time where I really didn't know where to start, so I asked my friend about it. He really answered my questions with great solutions. It's not really a solution but he mentioned a key point. He mentioned life decision which's true. In life, you'll make a lot of major decision which could change your life 360 degrees. Honestly,  am very different in school than at home. I can't really change myself at home because it will be too weird and I like how I am at home because I'm the maknae and the queen of disturbing people. But in school or outside, I am really very different. In school I am know for being really quiet and who can laugh for two hours straight. I laugh too easily, hue hue. I like being quiet but I can also get crazy at times, so it's not weird to see me alone and quiet. I don't really like to take pictures to be honest but I try. It's not because I have low self-esteem, just not into it. On instagram, I do have one and basically I love to pose with a peace sign beside my eye with a wide smile. I change a lot from Primary school to Secondary school.

So, to basically change yourself doesn't mean that you must change entirely, you can pick up good habits along the way and you'll change. Just never change yourself for others, like to fit in or just to grab your crush's heart. Kkaebsong~ Change because you want a good end result for yourself. Different people have different opinions, this is mine. 

Guys, it's my 100th post! Yehet! Thanks so much for reading my blog and for the 3000+ views. I never really expected you guys to read because this blog is just like a diary of mine. Haha~

Till Then :)