76.Forgive

Sigh.

Alright, peeps. Let's get into business.

So, basically, I am pretty sure you guys do experience this where you get ignored in school or on the phone and at one point of time, your friends start to leave you alone. Yes, it hurts so badly to be alone and that your friends will only come back to you when they need help. It's like as though they're using you for this and that but throwing you after that. You're being push to and fro but you still hold it in because you're just in need of friends.

Now, you see, I was in that situation too. I was ditched by my two friends for 5 months and finally, I started to gain more friends through mother tongue class or any leadership roles. By the time I got more friends around me, I was used to getting ignored and being alone. It's like, when I'm alone, it feels like I'm somewhere else, and everything is alright. But in reality, it's not. There were some problems that occured and even though I went through a rough patch with this two friends of mine who left me earlier this year, I still do help them because to me, they are still my friends no matter how many times they stabbed me emotionally.

They're not bad to me. They're good people, they are nice. I still do talk to them but I know that we will not be close anymore and I think that it's alright. I have other close friends too. I never thought of revenge but instead, swap it with forgiveness. It's easy to say but difficult to do because of betrayal. But if you managed to forgive that person, you won't feel mad, all those negative feelings are not going to make you feel like you're suffocating.

My main point is that, forgive others and treat them equally even though they can be really darn irritating sometimes. Revenge is not the right way, it's going to worsen the situation and that maybe, just maybe, this problem will turn out to be your fault. 

I like being nice to people, I mean, who wouldn't? 

I know that this is very random of me to suddenly talk about friendship problems, being alone etc. but I realized that this always happens when you are trying to adapt to that abrupt transition from being a child to a teenager in a new school with new friends who have different social backgrounds. Also, I didn't update my blog for quite a long time. So, why not today?

I'm not indirectly poking anyone. Just sharing my experience and just maybe, this can help you guys who are going through this situation.

Till Then :)