63.Overshadowed

You know that feeling that you get when you start realising that you're overshadowed by your friend(s) and you're like the girl or guy who are just there to accompany them. I mean it's not your friend but it's more of other people who seemed to not care about you but more to your friend. 

I felt it last time

It's not happening now. It's just that I realised that it's like a thing for me. When I go to a course or anything, my friend(s) would be the one that people would like more and spend more time with them instead of me. 

How did I remove those painful feelings away?

Well, things happened and during that time, I experience the saddest moment of my secondary school life as a so-called 'rookie', I had no one to be with. I was always alone because my friends left me every single time. It hurts to see them so happily laughing and joking around. That was when I decided to talk more. Now, after the councillor camp, I am able to talk more and it feels good. It feels like I'm being the mairah that I was In Primary School, talkative but friendly.

I'm still going through it on a daily basis but I try not to care and feel the pain. I mean, I have other thungs to do than being concern about this. 

So what I'm also trying to emphasize on is actually about self-harm. Doesn't mean you're alone, you need to cut yourself and hope that things will end. Well, the next thing you'll know when you wake up is that you're dead and people will remember you as a person who's a coward and scared of facing and overcoming challenges in life.

Never take things to personally when talking to strangers or friends or maybe family members. 

If you don't want to feel the hurt, don't bother to feel it. 

In fact, don't care.