53.Life

Sometimes, I wish that I was living in a fantasy world where everything is perfect. I am pretty, you are pretty, no fights, no racism, not hatreds, basically none of the negative things.

It's impossible. I mean life refuses to give you the perfect ticket for free. Life is unfair and try to think of it as a fear landscape, like Divergent. Put yourself into Tris's shoes and tell yourself what would've you done to surpass the challenges swiftly like a professional.

While I am typing this, I bet none of you are thinking on how do I feel. Just to share, I acknowledge the tiniest bit of sadness in my heart as the pain is overwhelming but at the same time, I seize the opportunity to grab hold of the happiness in my heart. My feelings and emotions are jumbled up.

I won't break down and cut myself. In fact, I have no scars and I WILL NOT EVER consider to put "cutting" as one of my "sad mode" option. When you feel sad, there'll be more negative thought like as though they barge into your mind.

Like
Excuse me,
Please knock the door

To find the cure is simply to hold on tightly to the happiness that's left in your heart. If it's too little, buy new ones for free and it's up to you on what should you do to  find one. Happiness for me is when I get to take photos and edit it. The outcome is amazing. I also find the cure through books that will temporarily kidnap me until I close the book shut.

You need something that can get your attention easily. Something great not those bad ones. You'll have a great mind, a happy heart, a kind soul, and a joyous journey in your life even though along the way you will fall. It's alright to fall.

Till then,
Xx